Last night, going out and getting drunk.. Horrible idea.

Tonight I sustained and decided that I definitely need to stay in. I did pretty well all day yesterday until I went and got smashed and ate a shit ton. An entire donor box and plate of potato wedges.

Today has been successful. I haven't eaten anything all day, and I haven't felt hungry at all either. I miss feeling hungry, and I feel that my day of not eating anything hasn't even done crap because I'm not hungry.

I'm deciding to fast tomorrow too. If I get really hungry, I may eat a small salad or some of my sliced up bell peppers for a snack. I work a double tomorrow, so I know I'll be worn out. :D

I have a head ache currently, so I think some working out and dancing around is definitely going to be put on the agenda for the remainder of my night. I drank a LOT of water and coffee today, and I'm about to enjoy some dry white wine. It won't take me much at all to get drunk. I had a few sips earlier and was feeling a buzz right off the bat.

My friend Matt filled all of my prescriptions for me and is going to have them in the mail for me on Monday, a full 3 month supply!!! I am so happy. I know that those drugs will help me stay on track too. I'll be able to finally get out of this slump and feel less anxious at work. Yayy!!!


My goal for this week is to stay home as much as possible. I don't want to make the goal too difficult, so I'll allow myself one or two nights out this week. Next week, I'm going to try to not go out at all. We'll see how I feel after this week. I'll start going out again in the future more, but I really want to get back to where I was. Going out right now just makes me give myself too many excuses to eat. I did not have this issue with staying away from food before I moved into this house. It's so wonderful to have internet again, and my thinspo videos, and this blog, and support from Katie. :D