I feel SO FAT.
I know that I haven't been on here for forever.. I let myself slide a little bit more each day.. bad enough that I even started letting myself eat at work again. What the hell..
Last time that I did this I went from 145 pounds to under 135.. I had been doing it for about a month, and I had been working out a lot then too. The guy I was sort of dating triggered all of these ideas that what I was doing wasn't okay... stupid.
I'm back to my thinspo videos, i'm about to make myself a nice big glass of water and take a long shower, and then another large glass of water.. then work.. and I will NOT eat there. When I come home, if I haven't eaten all day, I will treat myself to a few glasses of wine :)
